Show me the meaning of being lonely!

Loneliness;
That ugly bug!
Which crawls its way along my side,
It’s piercing fangs…
That make me cringe with pain and fright.

Loneliness;
My wet pillow!
That makes me stay up all the night.
Acid soaked!
A thorny bed, a sleepless night.

Loneliness;
A tiny stone.
Rocked by world and yet alone.
Played by all but seldom felt.
The cruel myth: ‘it never melts’

Loneliness;
My hand dispatched!
From your grip to free state.
It’s senseless death and apathy,
surging up with violent pace.

Loneliness;
My dangling fate!
All alone with reddened eyes.
A heart that suffers all the more.
And all you see a complacent face.

Loneliness;
My crazy love.
Added to it the countless facts.
The misconceptions and whims a bit,
That shapes me as a lonely soul.

And so I drift in loneliness…
Sinking awaits!


EPILOGUE:

Certain things happen with certain some one but fortunately things turn out great when the storm subsides 🙂 Since all is well till reported last, =P I do have an interesting image to share:

You ought to know  that I am lame and mad 😉


20/20 of my life in retrospect and Bill Gates copy-pasted =P

Twenty years!

Source: theskooloflife.com

Twenty years eaten up by an unknown ogre. . . or may be that’s the very one you affectionately call as life. The life I had for past twenty years advanced as it shaped me up. I say ‘advanced’ because each day I find myself less stupid than the previous day, even if its mere assumption. Twenty things I can conclude that ended up clipping a twenty-year-old me with laurels or morals. If you report mental/physical irritation with this twenty/twenty I can shrugging-ly tell you that repetition is the art you still need to comprehend my friend! 😉 That said, I state twenty lessons that life taught me as follows. (My apologies, as first things first is surely not my thing =P )

1) Don’t give a shit to people, Loo is certainly better for that purpose.
2) Gut feeling outdoes brain at times.
3) Love begets love.
4) Failure is not a speed-breaker, its an accelerator rather.
5) Short term goals make you successful.
6) Appreciation does wonders.
7) Do not contemplate much, just do it!
8) Insomnia helps in writing.
9) Having more than one best friend keeps you sane.
10) No one is intrinsically bad.
11) Being writer is not necessary to start a blog.
12) Study your fellow beings.
13) A little lameness is perfectly normal.
14) Family comes first, friends second.
15) Persistency is the key to success.
16) Progress is inversely proportional to satisfaction.
17) Merits of solitude are overrated.
18) Frailty! thy name is NOT woman.
19) You’re a complete universe within yourself, keep discovering.
20) Real world is uglier than what you think.

Considering that the above mentioned points wouldn’t make any sense and I’ve wasted your ‘valuable’ time =P , I want to copy paste Bill Gates speech. It goes as follows:

11 rules your kids did not and will not learn in school

Rule 1: Life is not fair – get used to it!

Rule 2: The world doesn’t care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won’t be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it’s not your parents’ fault, so don’t whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren’t as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent’s generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they’ll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn’t bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don’t get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you’ll end up working for one.

Have a good day kiddooos =P and pray that I pass my first unit test on Tuesday 😉

Eid, Eidi and my recommendations!

A very happy Eid to all of you! 🙂 That said, be informed that hereby hangs another boring tale that is intended to look like a blogpost:

Even the ideas that creep into my suffocated cranium are senile now. This 20-year OLD shabby-dabby blogger assumes herself something like Mother Goose this moment. Despite being solely financed by dear parents, I feel like an Eidi giver, out of this age-stroke probably. M.A is one of my besties who religiously reminds me that since I am no longer a Teen, I am a potential Eidi-giver, a treat-fund-er and what not… but money is not everything or is it?  One is free to choose whatever he/she wants to give as eidi. Hain na? As it turned out and was discovered some days ago, many fellow bloggers cum almost-friends (=P) are younger than me as well.  Since this is a very auspicious event how about this if I stop whining about my age for a while and pick the aforementioned bloggers who have been making me feel great about this blog since its birth 😉 There! Take your Eidi ( Doodles and blog linked that is) and don’t forget that ADAA’B thing please! 😛 😉

This Blogger has so much substance to scribble off.

Even if she is simply commenting around. Literature and politics in particular. Check out Maha Kamal’s Blog.

As She observes, she writes things on as is where is basis. Candice, simplicity and cuteness combined. Check out As I observed By Princess of No man’s land =P

See it her way or suffer the consequences =P This little 17 year old chatter box will storm your home page of twitter. Watch out =P Check:  C it my way!

Okay, This blog is highly recommended for the abundance of vocabulary and poetic rhythms all over, but comment carefully cuz he may blush =P Check out My Time Capsule!

That’s all for today =P . Have a wonderful Eid people 😀 Byes!

Carnage, End of times and all that Jazz!

All hat just had to happen.

The rows of disasters antd calamities huddling like beads of a rosary, the countless accidental deaths on daily basis, massacres deglutioning whole communities,  sectarian riots,  all that simply had to happen.

Hello the Historian out there! When was the first time you reported any incident disturbing the peace of the world? Cain and Abel’s dispute, right? But Cain did not hang Abel upside down. He chose to bury him, rather ashamed, after observing how a crow ( Raven, actually) buried another.

Source: vampirestate.net

Oh wait the Evolutionistis here too. So? Like you know Cain’s little jealousy for his brother grew stronger day by day that resulted in the first murder on the earth. The murderer had no choice but to pass this evil gene down his offsprings. First mutation, note that down Sir. If we assume jealousy a standard gene, a rough cross matching between the genes of a normal person and a jealous one gives the following result; 25% offspring will be normal, 25% would be jealous and the rest 50 % would be neutral. This is how we multiplied malice over time.

Here comes the Psychologist . What do you say eh? Ain’t jealousy the mother of all evils? What made Iblis the Satan? We call someone a psychopath who loses self control over normal Dos and Don’ts, means we are normally capable of curbing our weaknesses. But what we did was to nourish and feed the evil monsters within and breed even more stronger evil ones.

That said I add that lynching in Sialkot, Suicide bomb attacks and target killings now and then do not surprise me anymore.

Source: aaj.tv

The intolerance, malice, hatred, jealousy, apathy we brewed up for generations are served today publicly as per customer’s taste. You can’t brush it under the carpet because its no more the grains of dust but a stiffened mountain.

Let’s talk to Physicist now. You told us that entropy leads things to the worse and whatever created has to perish progressively.  If we apply this general law of Physics to everything what gets proved is our frailty and God’s supremacy.

Ask an Environmentalist, He says producing certain chemical compounds deplete Ozone layer ; the layer that God set as barrier between the earth and the radiations for our safety. He also says that deforestation and hunting of animals destroy the ecosystem, the role of which in maintaining a balance on earth has not been understood fully yet. He further says that you cut the Mangroves alongside the beaches and you are likely to face such calamities.

And there you go all the sane men! The Almighty made you His supreme creations.He blessed you with a mind capable of nailing almost every mystery of the world. He gave you much common sense, much intellect to invent the things for your defense and progress.

And O Dear Countrymen, My fellow Pakistanis! Pity that we are Sindhi prior to a Pakistani. Pity that we think building dam will rob us off our precious water as Punjab will usurp it all and rein our sources as if Punjab is another country,  another state.

Pity that we are Punjabi prior to a Pakistani. Pity that we are always desperate to pwn our country to this peak that the other provinces whine in insecurity.

Pity all of us as we are rightly delved into self-pitying thinking that its God’s curse that we shoulder so many coffins a day, that we play Holi with blood and gore in our streets. Pity that we are Shiites and Sunnis and not the Muslims and then we blame Him?  We point our fingers towards the Heavens and question His mercy? We ask him why He sent us flood? Why He let so many people die if He were as loving as seventy mothers?

Source: Guardian.co.uk

We probably are waiting for Him to yell over the skies that O my Creatures, Give me a break! You are the ones screwing up your nature, cannibalizing your instincts, fiddling with the environment and then you call this as His curse when you yourself initiated a vicious cycle. We are here for what we did or what our fore-fathers did and we will reap exactly what we will sow today.

While the sand of times is leaking away due to the punctures we made, we still have the time to do something better. We still can become a better person for humanity and for morality. We can fix our flaws before being lowered down into the graves . We can change what will happen to us on the Doom’s day and in the after-life despite how much jazz it seems. But in this world with everything totally effed up now,  I despair whilst writing that all that just had to happen.

From Teens to Twent-eens!

SO. . . The birth certificate says I was born on 31st August 1990. Darn it because for a fact I want to fake this document and fool this “sweet” world that I m not twenty yet :/ I mean, my friends are younger than me. Almost all of them. This out-of-the-world feeling is a pain in the neck. You can feel it from these abruptly written words. Nevertheless I so lurvv these intelligent minds who have invented that consoling term “twenteen”. Let me tell you that I’ll keep it till 25 or may be even after that =P . Stop giving that look,  you can wish a belated birthday rather 😉 =P

For those who wished me or plan to wish me… Here, take this =P

And the real cake by a really sweet, cute friend, the only one who was actually there with me on my birthday 😀 ❤ you Rabia!  She gifted that cake ( My cell phone is pathetic… so are the pix, I m sorry 😦 )